Open Marriage

With thanks to Tess at http://nyc-urban-gypsy.blogspot.com/2006/03/be-careful-what-you-wish-for.html for inspiration.

During the party, the two ladies talked about their sex lifes. Wife who came with her husband, had an open sex life, i.e. the husband was interested in watching and taking pics of his wife getting fucked. Lady1 and her husband were into the same thing, unfortunately, the husband couldn't attend as someone had to take care of their 9 year old boy.
Lady1 talked about how, last summer for 4 months, she was fucked everyday by men, with an intermediary with her husband's full knowledge. The intermediary was to screen the men that would come by, chat with lady1 at an apartment arranged by the intermediary and get fucked. The guys that came in varied, as lady1 said, from 18 year old kids to men and their wifes/girlfriends. Two complete strangers to meet for pure fucking. I think the intermediary was paid an "enterance fee" from the men. They did not know who they were going to fuck.
She did this with her husband's full knowledge, leaving her house in the evening and returning later in the morning.

I know how men's and women's sexual peaks varies, men in their 20s and women later between 30s and 40s but would allowing your wife to get fucked by men constitute as an open marriage?

I'm only guessing here but after years of marriage, wouldn't the intimacy between couple be greater in satisfaction than getting royally screwed by some stranger?

The Party - analysis (Love and Sex)

I go to bed every night with an empty feeling around my chest. My arms seems out of place even though its attached to my shoulders. I want someone to sleep with, to hold in my arms, to be snuggled awake when the sunshine streaks through my curtains.

I want be loved and love someone but confused it lust; To be satisfied emotionally without physically drained.

Its from the old poem, "what money can and cannot buy"
"you can buy sex but not love"
"you can medicine but not health, you can buy a house but not a home"
There are more but I can only remember this 3.

In trying to substitute my desire for love with lust, I've jeporized everything I know about myself. I can never be the same person as I was before last Saturday.

I don't think I'll ever able to have an One-Night Stand without having emotional guilt after it.

The Party - aftermath

I sent an email to doctor thanking him for the invitation and looked forward to the pictures he and the other men took.

In his reply, he said he and everyone was happy to see and enjoyed my company. He told me what he did after and sent a link to yahoo pictures where he uploaded the pictures he took.

I got sick., to the pit of my stomach. I feel so vunerable, open to blackmail.
I didn't know why I let myself get in this situation. I've had other sex-related offers (i.e. fuck the wife while the husband takes pictures) but I've always turned it down. Why, this time I didn't mention this during the email exchange or before the party started that I didn't want my face in any of the pictures. I did shake my head when they first started taking pictures but they said they were all good people, and the pictures won't be used for ill gains. But under-estimated how much sex was going to be involved.

I've sent an email to doctor and said to removed the pictures and blur the faces, especially that he has uploaded them on yahoo. I never have considered yahoo personal briefcase or photos safe.

What was like to have naked pictures taken for the first time?
Have you had your pictures taken in compromising positions and regretted it?
Has the pictures come back and bit you back?

March 15th - I checked the link and its no longer active. The pictures are no longer up on the net. I feel a little safer but the pictures are still floating somewhere.

the party

I went. My heart was beating like mad. The arrangement was the doctor had reserved a room in a restaurant. From the mail he sent, the room had a revolving bed. We arranged to meet in at the train station. I came early. I couldn't stay still sitting at home, worried I might get late for the meeting.

At the train station, I met them. It was the 3 of them, 1 female (lady1), 2 men (doctor, male1). One was the doctor, I recognized him from the picture he sent him. I didn't send him one since I was a tall foreigner and would be probably be easily recognized. We all made a quick hello and headed to the restaurant. The others were to meet us at the restaurant. As we walked, we made small chat. The doctor asked if I was "filled". I had spent the last week, sitting on my hands, not jerking so I can impress the ladies with my cum filled cock. He was impressed and we made it to the restaurant.

There were a couple (hubby, wife) already waiting in the restuarant. We all made quick introductions. It seemed that the doctor was getting all the people together. He was the focal point of this "party". The table was round, I was sitting next to lady1 and male1. Next to lady1 was doctor, next to him was wife and hubby. The wife was wearing a ultra short skirt. When she sat on the sofa, panties were clearly visible. She was into this game, but I didn't know what to say, only to be slightly embarrassed. The room also had a karaoke machine, which was pretty neat. The waitress came in and took our order for drinks. The menu was already set and drinks was unlimited for 2 hours. Everyone except me had beer, I had ice tea. I didn't want the alcohol to get to me, early on.

As the party progressed, we made small chat on various subjects, mostly x-rated. The doctor made everyone comfortable, and made sure the party progressed. The wife was sitting normal and her panties were in full view. She had gone shopping before they came and bought a maid costume to wear. Lady1 wore a leather outfit under her dress. It came with removable breast cups that she removed exposing her breasts. Since we were in a restaurant, and food was being served, it was hard to get anything going. lady1 with her breasts exposed sitting in a leather outfit kept my coat on just in case the waitress walked in. Later, wife changed into the maid outfit. Doctor had been with her previously and said she was bald. I was curious, and doctor obliged by pulling her panties down. She was smooooth, I wanted to get my mouth on that.

I ended up spending time with lady1. She was half my height had extra long nipples which was tasty. I sucked and tweaked on her nipples. She was "out of commission" down below since it was that time of month. Wife was with man1, who was taking his time bringing her to orgams with his fingers. Soon I was slow dancing with lady1, then getting on the bed. Doctor had brought condoms but were too small. I managed to get one on and lady1 sucked on it. She was impressed with my size and said jaws hurt. By this time, man1 and wife were sitting closer. Her outfit was in a mess, her breasts exposed. i wanted to suck on hers too and lady1 was happy to move out of the way so wife could get between my legs and suck.
It went well, I pulled her up and she was ready to sit on my cock but the condom wasn't worn properly, (too small). I wanted her to sit on my face but she said eating was not allowed so I didn't push her. It was almost time to give up the room so she slid off me. the women got dresses and I zipped up my pants. We paid the bill, made sure we didn't leave anything behind.

After we left the restaurant, walked to the train station and disbanded there. I was left alone and walked around thinking what happened. The condom too small had killed my erection and I didn't cum for them. Major disappointment as I did not cum for the past week.

I'm still a little worried/ The thing is, doctor, man and hubby had cameras on them and were taking pictures left and right, including me in compromising positions. They had assured me they were good people and will not be sharing the pictures. I just hope so as I stick out like a sore thumb living in Japan. Anyone will recognize me and I hope no one does. I'll have to leave the country if they do.

I worry to much

Invitation

I've been exchanging emails with a older Japanese male (a doctor). He had posted pictures of some married lady he's fucking on the net, and I emailed him on his pictures he posted in Japanese. During our email exchanges, we found out we lived pretty near to each other.

During our emails, I told him about my sex life (the lack of) I have in japan. He took pity on me and said I should join him one day when he has a romp with one of his mistresses he has. The first time he told me to come was last summer. He wanted me to come and fuck a lady outdoors. It would be him, the lady, her husband and myself. I wasn't too keen at the time of fucking outdoors. The thought sounded interesting but I didn't want to risk getting caught and get deported for being a pervert. I backed out and said sorry.

Last week he said some other couples he's being fucking (the wife with the husband's consent) were interested in meeting me. I was feeling a little confused, to go for it or not. He said they were meeting together for a "private party", the 5 of them, 2 married couples and the doctor and wanted me to come. He said it will be eating, drinking and maybe something erotic.

This time I said ok. At least I know where I'll be and if I needed to escape, i could always run out of the restaurant into a busy downtown area and not some remote wilderness park.

the "party" is this saturday afternoon. I'lll post what happens, when I come back.